I would like to say that I moved out to Kansas City in faith but I think I moved out in frustration. I didn't have anything else so I came out here thinking I would probably get in but not really knowing. It wasn't until I was in the state of Missouri that I actually got the acceptance.
Now I am fully integrated into the night life here at the International House of Prayer (IHOP). That means I spend most days from 12a to 6a in the prayer room with classes and revival services in the evening hours. Doing these hours and this schedule is intense. It is a complete lifestyle change for me and I have been going through serious detox. I think I am understanding more and more what it is to lay it all down for Jesus. I sold and gave away most of what I own. My leather couch, motorcycle, bed, dresser, coffee table etc. Wow. I can't tell you how tempting it is some nights in the prayer room to just jump in my car and head back to Jersey. But I can't. This is all for the Precious Pearl. I spend a lot of time in the prayer room counting the cost. I am being more convinced that it is worth my life, my eternity to chase after this one thing. It is worth my life to sell all I have, give to the poor, and be more in love with Jesus than the day before. I am learning to run from that "other life" as Amy Carmichael describes. I am finding that instead of running to the comforts of the world I need to find comfort with the Comforter himself, the holy spirit.
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wow you sold everything you own? I am so proud of you. :) you are so going to experience something that is far beyond worth it. I pray that God takes you into the intimate and most deepest places of His heart and love. :)
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