Born of the Spirit- Part 1

It's been a while since I last updated. It's most likely due to the fact that It's been somewhat of a hidden time in KC. I've been experiencing so much and learning so many new things that I haven't quite developed a language for how to explain all that's been going on. In one way I feel like a student tackling some abstract theory and I can discuss the theory among classmates but for breaking it down it's a bit of a struggle. I've alluded to some things but I feel like a deeper explanation and understanding is required.
Deep Breath. Here I go.
Every person is spirit, soul, and body. We are by nature spiritual beings who live in a physical body and have a soul (mind, will, emotions). Much of my life has been spent in two sectors. I have concentrated much on my physical body by working out, running marathons, etc. Secondly, I've used by soul in making choices, loving others, gaining an education, etc. But I am starting to use my spirit to a much greater extent. Through Jesus my spirit was reborn (John 3). I've used my spirit in some basic ways by praying in tongues, prophesying, etc. But even much of my "spiritual" life has been lived through the soul. I've read the Bible by using my mind, prayed by using my mind, emotions, and worshipped by using will, emotions. Much of how I've communicated to God hasn't been through the born-again spirit but through the soul. This isn't wrong. We are commanded to love with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength. It is very real and very important to have the soul be obedient to Christ.
But what I am longing for and working at is making my spirit stronger. I've been born again--from that point I am a baby. How much growing have I done? How do I grow if I realize I haven't grown that much? How do I know how much I have grown?
Babies when they are born are very dependent and cannot see but a few feet in front of them. If I am born of the spirit I am created to see angels, miracles, heaven, etc. What have I seen of that? But if I grow what will I see of that?

John 3:8
"The wind blows where it wishes and you hear the sound of it, but do not know where it comes from and where it is going; so is everyone who is born of the Spirit."

Bottom line is I've been growing and I've been seeing.....