Sometimes it's so glorious following the Lord. Things work out just right and fall into place. Friendships are made in unsuspecting places, and lives changed forever. Other times it is quite hard and taxing. Trust must be given to God even when your simple little self seems to have none left to give. This year has been an odd combination of the two.
I went to South Asia in February and had an amazing time. I saw dreams fulfilled in front of my eyes and in my arms. I was immersed in God's love in the midst of poverty. I didn't want to leave.
At the same time I was in a full time job where I was doing well. In my short time career I quickly rose to a place of leadership. I liked my job. I liked my coworkers. But two weeks ago I resigned.
I am following my dreams. No job lined up. No set plans for 2010. Just faith. And a whole lot of trust. I signed up for 2 internships. I applied late. I could be spending New Year's in any number of places. With all that is uncertain I do know a few simple things. First, there is no going back. Who can undo what God has done? I will not step back into the same 'ol job. I have ruined that prospect--who can come back to routine after chasing after their dreams? I know life could never work that way again. Secondly, my whole life has led up to this point. My life is not measured in what work I do, but it is measured in heaps of love. God loves me and loves that I want to go back to South Asia. My life started with love and each season of life continues in that theme--my life has led up to me being catapulted into the future on this chorus of love. Lastly, trust is paramount. I am not sure where I will be in two weeks. Even less sure of where I'll be in six months, or two years. And I am okay with that. I will not be determining my own future. I used to think I did but if I wholeheartedly obey and trust the Lord my future is set. It's just like going on Space Mountain for the first time. You know you're in for something fun and the ride will end but you don't know the next turn--and it's far better that way. You are trusting the ride for fun and you know it will deliver on that promise. That is the Lord. Life will end in victory but it's far better not to know how it's coming.

"It will not do to say that you have no special call to go to China. With these facts before you and with the command of the Lord Jesus to go and preach the gospel to every creature, you need rather to ascertain whether you have a special call to stay at home." -Hudson Taylor